Insecurities: fix up!

Insecurity is a form of low self esteem or simply put, lack of confidence. There are many things people feel really insecure about; the most common insecurities are physical. Insecurities about permanent scars, body size, the shapes of some body parts, having stretch marks, etc.

I remember when I was still going through the age of puberty. I grew breasts when I was in junior secondary school and I felt very indifferent about it. I was taught in school that I'd get to an age where my body would develop and I'd see changes,so I was kind of ready for it. Probably a year later, I began to notice some annoying ugly-looking marks on my breasts. I was really worried but I could do nothing about it. I got to know that they were stretch marks and were as a result of the muscles stretching due to loosing and gaining weight and leaving scars which are the stretch marks. At some point,I was sad about this and was also ashamed,so I always wore clothes that covered my chest up to my neck. Whenever my mum was going to get clothes for my siblings and I, I always told her to not get me any dress that would expose my chest. 

At this stage, I got really acquainted with Google and searched for ways to get rid of those marks that I thought disfigured my looks. I searched and searched for something that didn't exist. I got to read from about three sites that stretch marks never go away, but their appearance can be reduced. This broke my heart. Anytime I saw any lady with exposed cleavage on TV, I thought of the ugly looking marks on my breasts. I thought my adulthood would be ruined because of those marks.

Once, I wore a top that had a low neckline and unknown to me, the top of my breasts were visible. I was watching TV with my mum and brother. When they noticed, my brother said "my friend drag your shirt up" and my mum went on about how nobody in her family has stretch marks and also asking me where I got mine from. I was devastated, I went into my room and changed the top to a shirt that reached my neck, I went to bed and cried.

I'd go back to Google and still search for what I already had an answer to,"how to get rid of stretch marks". Well, I got to know from my research that Shea butter could help with reducing the appearance, so I bought it and applied it on my breasts after every bath. Cocoa butter too was recommended, my mum had a cream that was made with cocoa butter, I used that too. 

For years, I covered my chest up because I was insecure about my stretch marks. My mum even thought I didn't like those revealing dresses, but that was just me trying to cover up and not reveal my "shame" to the world.

As I grew older, I learnt that it was normal to have stretch marks and it is nothing to be ashamed of. I also learnt that it is of no use being bothered over things that are uncontrollable.

Gradually, I became confident about myself. I began to wear dresses I liked without bothering about what anybody thought. I embraced my stretch marks as part of those features that makes up the beautiful woman I was and am becoming.

When I was about 13 thereabout, I had a road accident that left a scar behind my left leg. This was a huge insecurity for me. I was envious of everyone with smooth legs. I resolved to wearing trousers all the time. As I grew older,I realized it's nothing to be worried about.

If you feel insecure about something, ask yourself these questions,"is this my fault?","what can I do to change this?" If it isn't your fault and you can do nothing about it, then you should not worry your pretty head about it.

If you're insecure about your weight, you can work that fat out. Go on a healthy and inexpensive diet too. Also, don't expect results in one week. Slow and steady wins the race, so give yourself time. Give your body time to get used to this new workout routine. You would be tired and discouraged on some days, it's okay to feel that way once in a while. Don't stop, keep working out till you get that banging body you desire.

Whatever insecurities you have and have no control over, gain confidence now and take it that that's how God created you and you're perfect that way.

If you're not still comfortable with that physical feature and decide to get under the knife to get your desired body, feel free to do that. Just make sure you're happy and confident in that body.

And never forget,"there's no scar to your beautiful".

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